Sharp as mustard
his words stung and left
a trail of poison in my veins
the marks that you see on my face
are the scarred gashes of my heart
parts of my body hurt
even with friction of the clothes
I’m used to the metallic taste
of the human blood
“Perform” he used to say
his sandpaper lips
corroded my skin
rapacious, savage, fire-breathing monster
with tongue whipping in and out like a snake
his fangs exposed and dripping
large paws groping, trusting , tearing
mauling and ripping my soul
confused, deranged, wet and slimy
I lugged my pain streaked carrion
meticulously concealed
nothing but a battered rag doll
with a wound between the legs
who says “time is a healer”
it torments, prolongs
I mulled memory wine for long
filled glasses, raised toasts
got drunk
and then one day
sprawled on the cold floor
I packed my dreams
gathered my hopes
threw you in the trash
crumpled ball of ink smudged paper
No more a sacrificial lamb
or a tasty morsel
a part of your feast
No more a nauch girl
a marionette
a trophy wife
to flaunt
and
keep encased
behind concrete walls
when not in use
I would rather
live on the streets
under the open sky
but will not be used, abused
humiliated, I won’t
become your trophy wife
I won’t succumb, I’ll fight
I will give up
but won’t give in
my soul is hardened
I am a rock
Beautifully written. It realy really shook me up. You potray emotions so well through words !
Thank you Ruchira.
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Tikuli, I am speechless. Applause!!
Thank you Ritu. Courage and faith in oneself is all I have.
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OOOOHHHH !!!! WOW !!! Brilliant !!! 🙂
Thanks Uma.
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I won’t succumb, I’ll fight
I will give up
but won’t give in
my soul is hardened
I am a rock
I loved the last of your lines…. superb…
I believe in that Vishal. Thanks for appreciation.
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“mauling and ripping my soul
confused, deranged, wet and slimy
I lugged my pain streaked carrion
meticulously concealed”
Amazing, effective metaphors!
Thanks IHM for appreciation .I know you stand for dignity of each woman anyone in this world.
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Wonderfully descriptive and strong. A great piece!
Thanks so much Deboshree
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beautifully written
one of ur best I think brilliant
Thanks Monika . As my FB status says I want to be envied not pitied
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Very painful and like a master piece on canvas.Loved it!
Thank you Dr. Pratibha.
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I enjoyed it from the very first line …. sharp as mustard… and the the whole flow was fantastic. I loved your lines….
‘I will give up
but won’t give in’
…and in the end…. it was perfect.
ॐ नमः शिवाय
Om Namah Shivaya
http://shadowdancingwithmind.blogspot.com/2011/03/whispers-winter-dew.html
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Thanks Shashi. Will connect.
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Very Powerful – Shakes you up and strikes you dumb – Brilliant
Thanks Vikram. Praise from you warms my heart.
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Wait.Is it an work of muted fact or exaggerated fiction?If its the former, my commiserations.
Get well soon, however I have a completely irreverent and an opposite take on heart breaks. Not to steal you thunder, i blogged about it in my post Move on.
Thanks for visiting my blog and for the comment Dhanesh. It is a fact and not muted at all. I have moved on and thats why I can write about it so freely without any hesitation. Heartbreaks happen but there is always another rainbow. would love to read your post. will visit the blog. thanks again.
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Brilliant! If I didn’t know you wrote and had to guess the author, I’d have guessed it was Kamala Das’.
Oh My Amropali , you made my day. I love her writings and the brave spirit of hers. Thank you so much
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Whoa! Is this personal Tikku? I hope not. Considering your writings, I think this is one powerful take, leaving me thoughtful. Don’t think any woman should be a “trophy” in any capacity.. well written!
Yes it is Leo. Thank you for your comment. Agree with you here buddy. Hope some men would learn a few things and some women too ..
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Just loved it ! Nothing more to express.
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ouch – that really hurt. Very strong. Well written.
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Just love the expressions ……………..
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Very well written! Strong and evocative.
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beautiful
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its beautiful..well composed the pain and brutality
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If words can make you feel the pain like a slash on your soul, those words are indeed the most powerful ones.
You are blessd indeed that you can make others feel with you. Its great to have you back , doing what you do the best..take care
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Understandable pain.. Long journey through the darkness but finally a light at the end of tunnel.. 🙂 You are brave and you are wonderful.. Every woman must fight for their equal rights and every man should realize the existence of equal population around the globe.
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A very emotional and courageous poem:) An inspiration for the women of today!
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The first line itself punched me hard….awesome.
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though I dnt keep in touch Ritu keeps updating me. This poem was like a jolt, v well placed. ALl the best dear.
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Thank you so much Jay. I appreciate that you found time to read and comment. Do keep reading.
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Lovely! 🙂
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I read it hoping that wasn’t true. Beautifully written.
Your courage is inspiring.
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“my soul is hardened
I am a rock”
Read the poem 4 times. every time tears rolled on my face. No words. Not needed.
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No More!
No more will I bow down
No more will I let you hurt me
No more will I care about you
No more ! No more!!!!
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Wow Tikuli.. what powerful words you have put out there! I am touched … Many women will relate to your words.
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