Day 2 : Heart Vs. Mind


It was a crazy day today with so much happening at one time that I just went bonkers. I was not sure I will be able to sit and write a post today but something was bothering me from within. A trapped creativity and some thoughts which are better out than in.

The devious mind was overpowering the love filled heart and forcing it to change the course. The poor heart was getting drained by the already filled emotions and then the continuous nagging by the mind.

I decided to leave things to the universe and let the heart rule over the brain ..once more.

I know my inner voice is my personal source of wisdom. So I decided to march to my own drum beats and listen to my gut instincts. The devious mind tried to persuade me to follow it’s dictates but I knew that my happiness and inner joy lay in following the heart. For it is said it is better to love and fail than never to love at all.

To some this may sound foolish but I have seen that when you don’t let the mind rule your heart then you take the best decisions of your life. Guilt free, conscious decisions.

“The heart is always right– if there’s a
question of choosing between the mind and
the heart– because mind is a creation of
the society. It has been educated. You
have been given it by the society, not by
existence. The heart is unpolluted.” Osho

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“Falling in love you remain a child; rising in love
you mature. By and by love becomes not a
relationship, it becomes a state of your being. Not
that you are in love – now you are love” Osho

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“Be thankful for what has been given to you – and life is giving you so much that your thankfulness is always going to fall short.”Osho

Today was also a day to thank the person behind all my creativity. I feel that a heartfelt thank you is must, it is important to show your gratitude for the good that has come your way through someone. I got this opportunity today and poured out all that was buried deep in my heart. With moist eyes and chocked throat I said what I wanted to for so long.

The heart feels good. I have done my bit. Never leave for another day what you so much long to say to someone, for that another day may never come and then the pain is beyond comparison.

Tagore has put it so beautifully and I quote :

From Fruit Gathering

XLVI

The time is past when I could repay her for all that I received.

Her night has found its morning and thou hast taken her to thy arms: and to thee I bring my gratitude and my gifts that were for her.

For all hurts and offenses to her I come to thee for forgiveness.

I offer to thy service those flowers of my love that remained in bud when she waited for them to open.

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I am glad I did what I did today for if I leave the earth tomorrow I will have no regrets.. And I am glad I wrote this post for it cleansed me of all the tiredness of the day.

Think about this and try to incorporate it in your life. Stay connected to your inner and to the universe.

Post 2 for June NaBloPoMo

lamhe : shaam aur raat


 

शाम

आज शाम कुछ सायों से मुलाक़ात हूई
शायद पुरानी यादें थी, साथ हो लीं
पेड़ों के झुरमुट में पत्तो की सरसराहट ने
हौले से कुछ कहा

दूर पहाड़ी पे मंदिर के
घंटे की आवाज़
और बसेरों पे लौटते हुए
पंछियों का कोलाहल

खामोश रास्तों पर कुछ पहचाने से लम्हे
तेरे दीदार के इन्तेज़ार में नज़रें बिछाये
सूनी स्याह राहों को टाक रहे थे

नम आखों से भीगी हुयी पलकों पर
कुछ बूँदें छलक कर ठहर गयी थीं

जब शाम के गहराते साए
रात की काली चादर में घुलने लगे
और मैं मीलों फैली खामोशी साथ लिए
लौट आई तुम्हारे इन्तेज़ार के पल गिनने

रात

दिल की देहलीज़ पर हुयी दस्तक
सोचा तुम आये
सितारों ने हैरां होकर पुछा
क्या आज भी इन्तेज़ार है उसका ?

मैंने कहा इन्तेज़ार की तो अब आदत सी
हो गयी है
अब तो उनसे ज्यादा लगता है
उनकी यादों से मोहब्बत सी हो गयी है

मुझको यकीं है वो ना आया तो उसकी
यादों का कारवां तो आएगा
मिलन की खुशबू भरी सौगात ना सही
कुछ पुराने दर्द तो दे ही जायेगा

रात ये इन्तेज़ार की युहं ही निकल जायेगी
ये यकीं है हमको एस तटों भरी रात की
सुबह ज़रूर आएगी

मिलन होगा ये वादा था उसका
कभी मसरूफियत में अचानक
उसको जब हमारी यद् आएगी
बस वही पल है जिसकी आस में
हम पलकें बिछाये बैठे हैं
अब आयगा कोई पैगाम
ये आस लगाये बैठे हैं

यूँ ना समझना के उनको हमसे मोहब्बत ही नहीं
या के शायद अब उन्हें मेरी ज़रुरत ही नहीं
ये रिश्ता जो हम दोनों का है
रूहानी है
पहचान आज की नहीं
कई सदियों पुरानी है

कोई शिकवा नहीं उनसे
हर घड़ी के इस इन्तेज़ार का
नहीं होता इससे बढ़कर मज़ा प्यार का

रात बीत गयी पर इश्क की सुबह ज़रूर हूई, पैगाम आया वो आये और इन्तेज़ार की घड़ी ख़त्म हुयी

On The Subject Of Anger


I sometimes get motivational articles from friends who have been trying to understand various aspects of life through various techniques like Vipasana and Pranic Breathing etc.

This is one such article which I would love to share with all my friends. This was sent to me by a friend Gautam. He himself practices Vipasana and takes sessions also.

Hope it will benefit all of you.


On the Subject of Anger

What happens when someone is angry? The law of nature is such that one who generates anger is its first victim. One is bound to become miserable as one generates anger even though most of the time people do not realize that they are harming themselves by generating anger. Even if someone realizes this, the truth is that one is unable to keep oneself away from anger; to keep oneself free from anger. Now let us see why one becomes angry.

It is quite obvious that anger arises when something undesirable has happened, when someone has created an obstacle in the fulfillment of your desires, when someone has insulted you or when someone has expressed derogatory remarks about you while backbiting. All such reasons make one flare up in anger and are the apparent reasons for one to become angry. Now is it possible that someone can attain so much power that no one should say or do anything against him? This is certainly impossible. Even to the most powerful person in the world, undesirable things keep on happening and he or she is helpless to prevent it.

Even if we can stop one person from insulting us or saying something against us there is no guarantee that another person will not start doing the same thing. While we cannot change the whole world according to our wishes, we can certainly change ourselves to get rid of the misery that one suffers because of generating anger. For this one has to seek a deeper reason for the anger within oneself rather than outside.

Let us understand within ourselves the real reason for generating anger. For example, let us understand from the standpoint of Vipasana the real reason which causes us to experience anger within ourselves. If you learn the art of observing the reality within yourself it will become so clear at the experiential level that the real reason for anger lies within and not outside.

As soon as one comes across some undesirable thing outside there is a sensation in the body. And because the object was undesirable the sensation is very unpleasant. It is only after feeling this unpleasant sensation that one reacts with anger. If one learns how to observe bodily sensations equanimously without reacting to them one starts coming out of the old habit of flaring up in anger and harming oneself. The practice of Vipasana helps one to develop the faculty of observing all the different kinds of sensations which one experiences on different parts of the body from time to time and remain equinamous by not reacting to them. The old habit had been that when you feel pleasant sensations you react with craving and clinging and when you feel unpleasant ones you react with anger and hatred. Vipasana teaches you to observe every sensation, both pleasant and unpleasant, objectively and remain equinamous with the understanding that every sensation has the quality of arising and passing away. No sensation remains eternally.

By practicing the observation of sensation equinamously again and again one changes the habit pattern of instant blind reaction to these sensations. Thus, in daily life whenever one comes in contact with something undesirable one notices that an unpleasant sensation has arisen in the body and one starts observing it without flaring up in anger as before. Of course, it takes time to reach a stage where one is fully liberated from anger. But as one practices Vipasana more and more one notices that the period of rolling in anger is becoming shorter and shorter. Even if one is not able to feel the sensation immediately as it arises, maybe after a few minutes one starts realizing that by the blind reaction of anger one is making the unpleasant sensations even more intense, thereby making oneself even more miserable.

As soon as one realizes this fact one starts coming out of anger. With the practice of Vipasana this period of realization of misery pertaining to unpleasant sensation becomes shorter and shorter and a time comes when one realizes instantly the truth of the harm that one is causing to oneself by generating anger. This is the only way to liberate oneself from this mad habit of reacting with anger.

Of course there is a also a way that as soon as one realizes that one has generated anger one may divert one’s attention to some other object and by this technique one may feel that one is coming out of anger. However, it is actually only the surface part of the mind that has come out of anger.

Deep inside one keeps on boiling in anger because you have not eradicated the anger but merely suppressed it. Vipasana teaches you not to run away from the reality but, rather, to face the reality and start objectively observing the anger in the mind and the unpleasant sensation in the body. By observing the reality of the unpleasant sensations in the body you are not diverting your attention somewhere else nor are you suppressing your anger to the deeper level of the mind. As you keep on observing the sensations equinamously you will notice that the anger that has arisen naturally become weaker and weaker and ultimately passes away.

The fact is that there is a barrier between the smaller part of the mind, that is the surface of the mind, and the larger part of the mind, the so-called subconscious or half-conscious mind. This larger part of the mind at the deepest level is constantly in touch with the bodily sensations and has become a slave of the habit pattern of blind reaction to these sensations.

Due to one reason or the other there are different kinds of sensations though out the body at every moment. If the sensation is pleasant then the habit pattern is to react with clinging and craving and if it is unpleasant the habit pattern is to react with aversion and hatred. Because of the barrier between the small surface part of the mind and the rest of the mind the surface part is totally unaware of the fact that this constant reaction is taking place at the deeper level.

Vipassana helps to break this barrier and the entire mental structure becomes very conscious. It feels the sensations from moment to moment and, with the understanding of the law of impermanence, remains equainmous. It is easy to train the surface level of the mind to remain equinamous at the level of intellectual understanding but this message of intellectual understanding does not reach the deeper level of the mind because of this barrier.

When the barrier is broken by Vipassana the entire mind keeps on understanding the law of impermanence and the habit pattern of blind reaction at the deeper level starts changing. This is the best way to liberate yourself from the misery of anger.